December 30, 2008

On these

That's good!

Everyone. Almost every one of my friends who found out, either through this blog or Facebook or my telling them personally, that I have a boyfriend now, has the same response - "That's good! Good for you! I'm happy for you."

Quite uanimously too, my response - (with a skeptical squint of the eyes) "What do you mean? What's so good about that?"

Then, they will go about saying how they were worried I might get left on the shelf, or because they think I deserve to be in love, or they were just afraid that I was going to stay off relationships since I sounded so cynical and adamant about not having a relationship for the past two years.

Then again, isn't two years long enough?

I don't know why and how having a relationship or having a boyfriend would be something that's good for me. I know, however, that the relationship I have now is really going good, and my boyfriend is so-good enough for me. ^^

So fierce!

Both CJ and Eugene, whom I met today for dinner and lunch respectively, brought out the point that I am fierce and that's why Emman is not in the position to negotiate or initiate anything with me.

me: He (Emman) will always ask me first before he decides anything with his friends. Like you know, he won't assume I'm ok with his decision.
eug: That's good, isn't it?
me: No... not all the time. Sometimes, it's really OK with me if he assumes that I am ok with his decision. He needs not consult me on things like going out with his other friends.
eug: That's what you say now. Wait till he doesn't ask you anymore.
me: No... it's really true.
eug: Ok. Are you fierce to him?
me: Of course not! *laughs* Hey... I'm not fierce lahhh...
eug: *shrugs in a way that suggests he begs to differ*

me: So, I just told him (Emman), like I told the whole world, that I was not ready for a relationship and I didn't want one. In the end, I was the one who had to tell him how I felt first.
cj: sigh, Jan... of course lah! You're so fierce! How would he dare tell you!
me: Hey... What do you mean? I'm not fierce...
cj: You're so fierce... already told him that you don't want, of course he better don't tell you anything...
me: ...

getting thinner

I am seriously, really, genuinely NOT getting thinner. I have put on 2.5kg since this year. Not a lot, by most people's standard. But trust me, it's significant by my standard. For the first time in my life, my weight this year is consistently a multiple of 5 and 9 now and not a prime number. That is a big deal.

I may look thinner cos I'm more tanned (and pray, toned) and well, my hair now is at a length where it emphasizes on my sharp chin.

But the truth is, I'm not getting thinner, I'm having problems fitting into some of my old pants. So, go figure it out.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 02:34